What I love

I am enjoying these last few weeks before our new darling arrives. I have even more then before for either of my other children looking forward to this birth and amazing blessing that is about to arrive. I guess it's my growing in motherhood that has changed my perspective, not I guess, it's what I know.

After my first baby was born I didn't think I could ever go through that anytime soon again. However 15 months later my husband and I felt the time was right to go for round two and almost instantly we were blessed with becoming pregnant. My second sons birth was amazing and I never thought I would use that word when it came to labour and childbirth but it really was. I studied breathing techniques and did a clam birth or hypnobirthing course that really hit home to me on a level that I could relate to.

Now with this baby coming I feel confident and happy that we are getting to experience it all again. Sure I'm scared as to how I'm going to manage and what it's going to take out of me, no sleep, no energy, lots of TV, and a really messy house are all coming my way, but I would not give all that up just so that I could have an easier and more "comfortable" life which revolved around me rather then children.

I love especially that I am the one looking after with all my might these little babies. I am the one that  cuddles them when they are sad or hurt, I make their food and choose what they eat, I get to play with them and snuggle up when it's reward time with a nice disney movie...last week it was a beauty and the Beast and little Asher hasn't stopped talking about it since! I love that I get to make the decisions on how to train and discipline these boys. When I say I, it is so lovely to know that my husband and I are unified in the decision making process for how we want our children to be raised. I say I because I am e one who is here all day everyday and he is not, but WE as a team and as the leaders of this family have the priveledge of calling the shots and I love that we are seeing the benefits of our patience and long suffering in training our children.

I love that I chose to stop working and becoming a full time stay at home mother. I also know that my husband loves that he is the provider as he actually says it a lot how he loves going to work and that he feels proud that I don't have to be in the workforce if I didn't want to be and that he is able to take care of his family. I think he makes comment on this issue at least once a week so I know it really means something to him. I am thankful that he also supports me no matter what decision I make, so if I did want to work he would have no hesitation in helping me achieve that, thankfully I'm not going anywhere and home is where I want to be.

This wasn't always what I thought I would like, it actually was something that I have learned and have grown into. I have a bachelors degree in International Journalism and Mass Communication, but even while completing that degree I realised that I wanted to be a mother more then anything else, meanwhile John and I didn't meet until 3 years after I graduated. I had the opportunity to work in m y field during that time and all the while I knew it wasn't where my heart was.

I have had people comment saying that it must be a huge waste now that I have "given up" my life in order to raise children. Nothing could be further from the truth. I am not only the mother, wife, cook, cleaner, doctor - but I'm also using all those talents and lessons that I have gained up until this point in my life to manage a household budget, as well as maintain our investment property and other financial goals that as a family we have made. John does not have the time to invest in any of these areas but I do, and I love it. I love that we feel secure in our finances and all because I have the time to do it. He is super good with money and spending too so really it's only my spending that I'm really tracking :) most of his spending is all toward aviation and thankfully are tax right offs every year.

We have a wonderful system and I can't imagine the stress of adding me working would do to our system.

Most days are harder then others at the job I do but I love that I'm doing it because I could imagine myself being anywhere else. Sure travelling and exploring the world might be fun, but even then you still would have to work in order to have money to do that. Mine is just a different work and one that I value more then any that provide dollars.

Today has been a good day and I'm happy I got to sit and share some thoughts...

Time for some rest and preparation for the new and beautiful day ahead tomorrow xx